-Rock Bottom-

Well it all comes down to this. I spent all my money on beer on Friday, got a payday loan to hold me over till pay day. How fucking stupid. I have to do this I have cut myself off, I for the next 90 days will not buy anything at a club (beer) again. I am also not buying lunch ever again at work. I figure (today for instance) that I am not going to be able to eat at all during the day anymore but I figure once I forget a lunch and can't eat three or four days in a row I'll start remembering to bring one. I chose ninety days because I got a ninety day notice to vacate my apartment, the apartment I moved in to 90 days ago. They are converting all our apartments to condos. I like my place I don't want to move, I am so fucking depressed right now. I am done doing comedy for the immediate future, I don't think I can watch the local shit fests without drinking so I'm just not going to go. They are just too painful and boring. When I do go I am going to do my time and go home immediately. I just want to scream fuck as loud as I can right now. It is my daughters b-day this weekend and I don't have any money to buy her a gift or throw her a party or anything. That is rock fucking bottom. FUUUUUUCK. I am a fucking idiot and I am done with this blog with this lifestyle with this everything. Fuck you all. By all I mean myself I got myself into this shit and I will get myself out, but I will have to eliminate my lifestyle to do it. For the other comics out there please don't ask me to hang out anymore I obviously have no fucking control and if I don't change I won't have a place to live in 90 days. I am fucking broke and I don't want anyone buying me beers it just makes me feel like a fucking turd. What a great life I have carved out for myself. Yeah for me I'm fucking retarded.

Fuck me,

The Enforcer

"I should have ended with my Jesus fucking a goat bit" -Peter Johnson